Reply: so ya...

So heres my thoughts and questions:

We wont break, we wont die, its just the moment that shakes.

Thoughts: We are cleansing emotionally. Thats what i think. I think its the one thing thats going to save this. A few days away from each other to think, as mad as i got, even though it was my idea, you're actually forcing it. You know me better than anyone else, you know you are doing the right thing.

I know you are trying. Did you ever think that maybe its im needing something big...not just a million small things. Something that sticks out, something you remember your whole life, you know? That room full of flowers, something out of the ordinary. SO much happens in my life emotionally, not all of it sticks. Thats why i dont see the small things, they dont stick in my mind untill you remind me.
You're actions DO matter, they will never be habitual and unimportant.

Questions:

i've walked a mile in your shoes and they didnt fit.

I have not accused you of not caring completely. I've accused you of not caring the way you should. If you did, you would make sure im safe and protected; i wasent. Im still hurt and aprehensive.
How do i know you'll be there to make me feel special and protect me in the future when you havent shown it?
Your blog says "I do know that i havent made you feel special in the past, and im trying to change things, but change is a slow painful process sometimes.
So to make me feel special is a slow painful process?? [thats kinda messed up]
I do see that you are trying to change, i DONT want YOU to change, i just want to be reminded what i am to you. I know you think, its just nice to be reasured at least once.
I tell you that i see it eventually, so why do you still believe none of it counts to me??
Why is it im asking these questions, why dont want to make me feel like the most beautiful, special, amazing person in your life [[like how its supposed to be...like it used to be]]??

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