So im upset

So skyler took that job..where i will only see him on weekends....and my parents dont let us see each other much on weekends...but he will be happier with this job than the other one....and the job he really wantedover all of these fell through...
i really dislike he took it.

I got hit on by someone really random when i didnt want that kind of attention.
..but it was a nice way.

Skyler came into work, asked if i could go to VI. I called my dad
but he said no, so that made me really upset.
Skyler was pissing me off at work...other girls....
and he didnt give enough to try and fix it....
i had to go outside and talk to shelby for him to try and get me to tell him whats wrong.
I shouldnt have to do that.
Then Aron made me do some dishes, then i could get off work..
i told skyler that...he said i couldnt do anything so why does it matter?
Boys are dumb.
Loop hole to fix the problem?
I left him a note in his bronco.

So im stuck home again.
Sulking because my parents wont let me leave the hosue again..
Seriously, im about to crack, but if i crack i will get into trouble.
Any emotion around my parents except happy i get a lecture or they yell at me or my dad makes fun of me...
but im really deperssed right now.
Everyone is out having fun again without me....just because my parents are selfish....
its easier for them if im just home...they dont want to deal with it...so i have to stay stuck here....
im seriously rarely let out of the hosue at night with permission when it comes to social things.
and the things i do...i have to tell them like 5 hours in advance with ALL details or im not allowed to go anywhere...with all night time activites...i cant just ask while im at work if i can spend the night at lauren's cause they have to lecture me when i come home and call the parents....
If i didnt have free reign during the week to hang out...i'd seriously have depression right now.

They didnt even let me go out on my anniversary with skyler because i spent too much time with him already.
Thats fucked up.
And now since he took that job...we cant even celebrate it...my day off is tommorow...and i have to spend it with other people....


My parents give a shit about my saftey so much i cant experience life...im a very social person...
its killing me.